My friend, I can sense the struggle you're going through with your faith. It's as if you're standing at a crossroads, wondering if you can still have a relationship with God despite the doubts and uncertainties that are plaguing you. Let me tell you, my friend, your faith is not defined by your circumstances. It's not about the good times or the bad times, but about your willingness to trust and obey God, no matter what.
As a pastor, I've seen many people struggle with their faith, just like you. But the truth is, God is always present, always loving, and always working in our lives, even when we can't see it. It's like the verse in Romans 8:28 says, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." So, don't give up, my friend. Don't lose faith. Instead, draw closer to God, and ask Him to enlighten you, give you strength, and continue drawing you to Himself.
Remember, faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God (Romans 10:17). So, read His Word, pray sincerely, and pray as long as there is life in your body. And don't be discouraged if you don't see immediate results. God's timing is not always our timing, but He is always working, even when we can't see it. Trust Him, my friend, and He will see you through this difficult time.