Biblical Answer

Healing from a deep, dark depression can be a long and difficult process, but it's not something you can overcome on your own. When we've been hurt and have built up walls to protect ourselves, it's essential to ask for God's help. We need to lift our hurt and the armor we've put up, and ask God to speak through us, so our words reflect His love, peace, and reconciliation.

The first step in healing is to identify any sin in your life and confess it. Wherever there is sin, you need to acknowledge it and let God work on breaking it in you. If you've been repeating lies or wanting to die, it's essential to confess these sins and ask God to help you overcome them. Remember, Christ has taken the judgment of our sin upon himself, so it should be relatively easy to confess our sins to someone else.

When dealing with feelings of guilt and shame, it's crucial to remember that God is the one who heals us, not us who heal ourselves. We can't get ourselves out of this mess; we need help and power from God. So, pray and ask God to show you His will, give you faith to believe for a great answer, and help your unbelief. And when the outcome and timing are God's decisions, don't beat yourself up for it. Keep praying, and know that God's decision is the bottom line.