Biblical Answer

Why did I have to lose my sense of self, and my family?

The Root of the Problem: A Lack of Faith and a Focus on Self

The root of the problem lies in a lack of faith and a focus on self. This is evident in the way you describe your struggles with unforgiveness and your tendency to make yourself the center of your attention. You mention that you were made by God to create, and that when you don't create in a thoughtful and worshipful manner, you feel less made. This suggests that you were created to bring glory to God, but instead, you were focused on your own desires and needs. This lack of faith and focus on self led to a sense of restlessness and discontent, which ultimately led to the loss of your sense of self and your family.

The Consequences of a Self-Centered Life

A self-centered life can have devastating consequences, including family estrangement. You mention that family estrangement is unbiblical and that God calls us as the body of Christ to love, support, and forgive. When we focus on our own needs and desires, we can become isolated and disconnected from others, including our family. This can lead to feelings of loneliness, stress, and anxiety, which can further exacerbate the problem. It's also worth noting that a self-centered life can lead to a sense of disconnection from God, which can make it even harder to find ourselves and live a life that reflects God's values.

Finding True Self-Discovery

So, how can we find true self-discovery and a sense of purpose? The answer lies in losing ourselves in following Christ. When we focus on serving others and bringing glory to God, we find ourselves. As Jesus taught, "Whoever loses his life for my sake will find it" (Matthew 10:39). This means that we must be willing to let go of our own desires and needs and focus on serving others. This can be a difficult and painful process, but it's the only way to truly find ourselves and live a life that reflects God's values. By following Christ and living a life of service to others, we can find true self-discovery and a sense of purpose that brings us joy and fulfillment.