My friend, I can sense the pain and frustration that's driving your question. It's as if you're feeling a sense of loss, a sense that God has taken away your ability to enjoy life. But let me ask you, have you considered the possibility that this feeling of discontentment is actually a choice? A choice to envy what others have, to compare your life to theirs, and to feel a sense of dissatisfaction with what you have. The Bible says that we have a choice to take pleasure in our condition, which is wonderfully good, or to give in to envy.
As I reflect on my own life, I've come to realize that my ability to enjoy life is a gift from God. Without Him, I wouldn't be able to find enjoyment in anything. The Bible says, "This too, I see, is from the hand of God, for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment?" (Ecclesiastes 2:24-25). It's not that God is taking away our ability to enjoy life, but rather, He's giving us the opportunity to experience life in a way that brings Him glory. When we focus on Him, when we seek to know and serve Him, we begin to see that life is not just about our own happiness, but about the joy of living for Him.
As a pastor, I've seen many people struggle with feelings of discontentment and frustration. But I've also seen the transformative power of God's presence in their lives. When we learn to obey God, when we allow His Son to evidence Himself in us, we begin to see that even in the midst of adversity, we can experience joy and delight. It's not that the difficulties go away, but we learn to see them as opportunities to grow in our relationship with God. So, my friend, I encourage you to seek God's presence in your life, to focus on Him, and to trust that He's working out His purposes in you, even when you don't understand what's happening.