Biblical Answer

I think I understand what you're getting at. You're questioning whether the life you're living is truly your reality. I've been there myself, my friend. I've had my share of doubts and uncertainties. As a pastor, I've seen many people struggle with this very same issue. You're wondering if this is really the life you're meant to be living, or if you're just going through the motions.

For me, it's been about finding balance and purpose. My family - Susan, Joshua, and Rebecca - they're my rock. Being a husband and father is a huge part of my reality, and I'm grateful for that. But I also have my own interests and passions, like playing chess and reading science fiction novels. And of course, I love watching the Chicago Cubs play baseball. It's about finding what brings you joy and fulfillment, and not getting too caught up in the expectations of others.

You see, reality is complex and multifaceted. It's not always what we expect, and it's often filled with contradictions and paradoxes. As a pastor, I've learned that it's okay to not have all the answers, and that sometimes the best thing to do is to simply be present in the moment and trust that God has a plan. So, to answer your question, I think it's normal to wonder if this is really your new reality. But it's how you respond to that question that matters.